Folding and unfolding, the universe is origami

“Origami is a metamorphic art form. You got that piece of paper. You don’t add to it – you don’t take away from it, you CHANGE it”- Micheal Lafosse

While I was on blog ‘hiatus’ our family grew. Her name is Origami.

I had last seen her in 2004 – I took her to the beach and she was just learning to walk. 1932249_10152259835199767_201427886_nNannygoat and Lloyd had brought her to California for a visit. They were living in Utah, working out the details to move out here to us. Nannygoat adored Origami and was quickly learning the ins and outs of motherhood, despite the fact that she was not Origami’s biological mother. Bio-mom had agreed to Lloyd having sole custody and actually hadn’t seen Origami in months, when on Mother’s Day of 2004 she asked Nannygoat if she could please have a little visit she would sign the custody papers and it would be finished. Nannygoat and Lloyd were young and trusting, they had no reason not to let bio-mom have a visit, despite the fact that she hadn’t seemed to care for months.

And then she was gone. Disappeared.

For 10 years we hunted, searched, and scoured the earth. But we could not locate our little lost Origami. All we could do was hope and pray that she was happy and healthy.  Unfortunately, that was not her truth.

By a stroke of luck (and public arrest records) in early 2014, we located bio-mom. The excitement for Nannygoat and Lloyd was almost unbearable. Eventually, they were able to find out where Origami was and following the proper channels/laws and began the process of bringing her home.

The little toddler was so grown! But she didn’t know we existed. Didn’t know that we had cared and searched and mourned her loss. She didn’t know she was going to live with a Dad she didn’t know was alive and three half-sisters she’d never dreamed11037222_10153262685489767_4164099669592052339_n of. Her life while away from us was what I consider quite harsh. We had no idea what she would be like, after living that way for 10 years. In fact, until the day Nannygoat and Lloyd showed up, she didn’t even know her real name.

Now, we know. She is unique, creative and beautiful. She is one of the best big sisters I have ever met. Her soul is pure, unadulterated love. She loves magic tricks and anything art. Her hugs make my world. Her laughter is a gift.

The quote says origami is a metamorphic art form that you don’t add to or take away from – you just change it. Our family was missing our paper folder, our Origami, and now that she is here we are changed into something even more wonderful.

Adventure is not outside man; it is within

It has been 2 years, one month and seven days since I last posted here. I miss journaling. And that is what this was supposed to be.

I can’t let go. I think I’m back.

A new adventure begins now.

Catsup. Ketsup. Catchup.

Hmmm, so much. Let’s do a quick highlight and lowlight and then perhaps I will feel refreshed and I can begin to post again without the pressure of ‘catching up’. Then, as I go along, I can catch up if need be!

1) I started Herbalife meal replacements and trying to eat healthy. So far I’ve lost about 12 pounds.
2) BigBlue turned 2 and Bumblebee turned 1. And we marked Collin’s 5th birthday/memorial.
3) I got a big promotion and a raise.
4) Three days later Deere announced they are divesting themselves of my company. I am in limbo land now, pretending it’s ” business as usual”.
5) I was accepted into Northeastern University (Boston) and have started classes to finish my degree. It’s been 20 years since I took a class and over 30 since I was a regular student. Challenging!
6) I got a used hot tub yesterday. Tonight it was filled with water. They say it will take 24 hours to heat up. This seems unacceptable right now.

All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time


I remember the day Ladybug started kindergarten. I took the morning off work, we put her on the bus and then her mother and I drove as fast as we could to the IMG_0946aschool to meet her and walk her to class. My first granddaughter started school.

This year, Watermelon would have started kindergarten. My first grandson. Another first added to the scrapbook in my mind. First smile, first step, first words, first day of school. All those firsts that can only exist in our imagination and wishes.

I remember him in perfection. I envy his utter joy and peace in Heaven. I have complete faith that I will see him again and it will be glorious. But I suffer while I wait. My arms ache to swing him up into my arms and cradle his body against me.


Not any easier than the others.

Happy Birthday, Collin. Grandma loves you.

The violin sings, but the fiddle dances

CYH_CoverI am a big fan of music. All kinds of music. I enjoy rock n’ roll, folk, country, classical, Celtic, blues, and Christian. Music is a part of my everyday. I do more than just listen, I live it. Ofttimes a tune or lyric brings me to the heights of happiness or moves me to tears with a relived moment of life.

Don’t be mislead by my adoration of everything musical: I am not good at music. I can’t carry a tune, I can’t read music, and I can’t play any instruments. I know nothing about tone or harmony or any of the proper terminology. I only know what I LIKE.

Since I was a child, Country music and (what we called) folk music, has always been my go to genre. There was quite a bit of Irish music played during my youth (along with the Moody Blues, no wonder I am so eclectic) so I have always been a fan of strings (harps, fiddles, etc). After all this time, my ears are most pleased with a country (folk) sound that includes a lot of strumming or picking!

Luckily for my listening pleasure, I was able to review the Court Yard Hounds new album, Amelita. If the lovely ladies in the picture look familiar to you, it could be you’ve heard their earlier work as the two-thirds of the Dixie Chicks. This is the second album from the sister duo of Emily Robison and Martie Maguire and I must admit I never heard the first one. As a fan of some of the Chicks work, I was eager to discover what Court Yard Hounds had to offer.

This album is everything I adore. There are guitars, fiddles, banjos and so much more. I am taking toe tapping track Sunshine as my personal anthem for this time in my life. Maybe if I keep singing it, people will understand: “Hey, don’t rain on my parade.” The hauntingly, beautiful Divided is another treasure on this album. All around, it is an album I have listened to over and over and I have nothing but praise for the all the songs. It is not always true that I love more than half the songs on an album, but so far I haven’t been skipping any songs on this album and I have been enjoying it for days.

Right now, I think I’ll go pull up their début album and see what I missed out on!


I participated in this campaign for One2One Network. I received a free copy of the CD to facilitate my review. By posting, I am eligible for incentives. All opinions stated are my own.

Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away


My all time favorite thing to do with the grandkids is the circus!! And it’s circus time again. Get your tickets now and save!

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Join us as we measure out the perfect mix of marvel and majesty in an imagination equation where the impossible comes to life. Be a part of the brand-new spectacles from around the world immersed in the circus tradition you have come to know and love. Experience it live and feel the amazement! Children Of All Ages will be inspired for years to come at Ringling Bros. and Barnum & Bailey® Presents Built To Amaze!

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Oh Rats!

I do have garden updates! And Easter crafts! If only I could get them posted before they are irrelevant!

Sorry I am missing (again). Mr. Vixen was taken by ambulance to the hospital on Wednesday and remains there. He has diverticulitis and an abscess. They are trying to avoid surgical intervention; so they are treating with antibiotics and antifungals. It is very slow going and he is in a lot of pain. Also factor in the fact that he is a ‘man.’ He doesn’t sleep well unless I am sitting there next to him, sigh.

It turned out not to be SLUGS, but instead we believe it’s RATS. Which is worse. Before he got sick, Mr. Vixen made some rat protectors for the strawberries. You have to see these. They work great, except when the giant puppy from hell digs up the entire planter because her man left her alone. Heavy sigh.

I hope I can find somewhere to eat Easter dinner….I don’t have time to shop or cook and Mr. Vixen is NPO! He can’t even have water sips!

Everyone have a blessed Easter. And feel free to send your positive thoughts and prayers his way!

Strawberries and Sweaters and Slugs, OH NO

First Strawberry

I promised some picture of my wonderfully, successful strawberry adventures in the SuperGarden. I took these on Thursday. My pride and excitement at not one, but TWO 020 nearly ripe berries made me giddy.

The next morning I went out to discover the reddest, ripest of strawberries had a chunk missing out of it!! I was devastated (do I take this garden stuff too seriously you think?). I thought perhaps it was a bug…I went out in search of organic bug spray yesterday and coated my poor babies.

Flash forward to this morning…the other nearly ripe strawberry had a CHUNK missing. My friend Google immediately located similar pictures online and the suspected culprits? SLUGS. Eww. Or snails. I have seen neither, but guess where I am going now? That is right, to buy some organic slug/snail stuff (that is so a technical term). I must save the 022strawberries!!!

I ‘ve been home from work the past two days, hanging out with my niece and sister-in-law. They came from AZ to stay with us so Nannygoat could work her photographic magic with a senior picture session. My niece is an identical twin to Bear. It is amazing how much cousins can look alike. Please go check out the beautiful pictures Nannygoat took HERE.

Now you are probably wondering about the sweater part of the title? Well, if I can’t kill the slugs I was thinking of crocheting them little sweaters for our cool, damp mornings….

Kidding. I am making a super cute little sweater for Big Blue! I am nearly half way through, you can click this link and see my progress (and the pattern picture). I am thinking it may be completed before Easter, so I will post the pretty girl in her new sweater soon!! Also if you are on Ravelry, look me up –  crochetvixen.

Up tomorrow on the blog: SuperGarden fencing and planting!! Easter crafting!! Anything else I think of!!

This post linked up to the Homestead Barn Hop #104 Barn-Hop



My days are all filled with an easy country charm

It has been four years since my last SuperGarden attempt. That one was not very successful. Fear not, fellow homesteaders, I am always up for a challenge and I am driven to always succeed. I have spent hours and hours researching and studying before I begin again. I wish I could say I feel confident, but I do feel like one of the most well-educated backyard gardeners ever.

Although I have 2 of 3 of the “main” garden boxes done, we haven’t gotten the keep rabbits/horses/giant puppy OUTTATHEGARDEN fence up yet, so I haven’t planted yet. I do have the seeds, tomato plants and pepper plants purchased and ready to go. I am thinking after our Easter trip to AZ we will get it done.

We did get some planters along the side of the house done. As you can see below, it was an ugly little patch of dirt. Now it is three beautiful planter boxes filled with a blueberry bush, a raspberry, a thorn-less blackberry, a thorn-less boysenberry and one artichoke. All surrounded by strawberry plants. These pics were taken three weeks ago and nothing has died yet. That alone constitutes success for me, ha ha!! In fact, I will try to get some shots tomorrow of the strawberries and they already have berries!!!! I am telling you, I am the best-read berry grower in SoCal. If there is a book on how to raise the best berries I have read it. I have only a vague idea of what to do with all this gardening book smarts, but results seem positive so far!

Before Planter Boxes

During Construction

After Completion Planter Boxes

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