There’s only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self

I am trying to take Aldous Huxley’s words above to heart, but I believe I have succumbed to the evil of uncertainty that some call depression.  MacD asked why, when I have so much free time now, I haven’t been blogging. That is a good question. One I couldn’t really answer. A part of me thinks that my muse is hiding. Another part of me doesn’t want to share my bleak outlook, as that goes against my usual way of thinking. Maybe I just don’t do change well. Living in limbo is nearly impossible to my spirit, so my spirit hides away. Awaiting the sunlight like a bulb under the winter’s dormant earth.

I know that sharing with you, my friends, will make this time go easier and faster, but I just could not seem to get started. Now that I have, I am overwhelmed (you people are prolific! 667 unread items!). Away from the computer screen, I haven’t fared well with my ambitious list either. I have managed to complete numbers 1, 2 and 6. Well, I alone did #1, Mr. Vixen technically finished 2 and 6. Although I finished beta reading a wonderful book, I have yet to write up some feedback. I did manage to order my heritage seeds, so I suppose at some time soon I should build the garden to plant them in when they arrive. I also got the new sewing area set up and am working on some cute aprons, which I will share later this week. After five days of not having to work, I will have to admit to all that my cupboards and pantries have never (in my life) been so organized and pretty! I did pull that off.

Know that I am thinking of each of you daily, I am still here ~ just a bit quiet. I will try to change that a bit and to also fulfill some of my other wishes and hopefully pull myself out of this funk. I just really would love a new job. Or to win the lottery. Either would work.

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11 Comments

  1. Praying that you will be lifted up and your joy will return in spite of your circumstances Vixen…

  2. Young lady, just know we’re thinking of you. I know how hard it is to be living in limbo. It’s never fun, and idle thoughts have a tendency to create bleaker pictures. Share when you’re ready, we’ll be here to listen and lean on.

  3. *HUGS* I hope things are better soon! Just keep applying to every job you can get your hands on, even ones you might not think your qualified for. Who knows the perfect job might be disguising itself!

    Oh and start your Couch to 5K again so we can compare notes. 😀 I just started week 7 and I’m soooo proud of myself!

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  4. Hey sweetie! 🙂 Thinking of you. Just remember this too shall pass, and soon enough your muse will be back!

  5. I have the opposite problem…I haven’t been working and now I have to get a job and I know from experience that this will kill my muse for a while.

    Mom always said that everything happens for a reason. We may not understand it or like it, but there’s a reason. I just hope that you are able to find something that makes you happy!

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  6. Before you know it, this part of your journey will be looked at through your rearview mirror. Keep your spirits high.

  7. All I can say is that I am so with you … more than you can imagine … paddle on or float – just stay above the water. I’m fairly certain, there’s an island nearby that will offer a chance to focus, recenter and maybe, just maybe provide the proverbial fancy adult beverages that have little umbrellas.

    Lisa – Life is Like a Box of Legos’s last blog post..On a clear day …

  8. Well said. If we each take the time to work on ourselves then the rest will all fall into place. A lot of frustration comes with trying to control another person’s behavior.

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  9. Know that you are not alone and that there is no demon out there who can’t be chased with a good and hearty laugh. Together we can find the laughter that makes things turn around.

  10. Thinking of you. I know too well the feeling.

    Love ya

    xxx

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    hey id like to talk with you about your blog. please email me – thanks.

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