Beauty comes as much from the mind as from the eye

This post is my attempt to win the Say Wow Not Ow Private Yummie Tummie Style Session at BlogHer…..

Last Fall, I started a new chapter of life. It had been over a decade since I had to impress anyone. New job, new co-workers, new expectations, new responsibilities all requiring, of course, a new look. In my previous job, I could wear sweat pants if I wanted to. Not so at the new job. Luckily new job also equaled new paycheck, so I was able to outfit myself fairly well and present a polished, professional me.

Fast forward six months and you cannot find that confident, polished, professional me. She doesn’t exist anymore. I might as well have taken the money I spent on those outfits and had a cash-burning bonfire. As my doctor describes it, a “tempest” wreaked havoc on my body. Some of the changes are permanent and others will be much more difficult to overcome because of the change. After menopause, a woman has to work three times as hard to lose weight and thanks to menopause, I now have over 40 pounds of new weight to lose. I hear from others they ‘can hardly tell’. But I can tell and it hurts. Hurts my head, my mind and my body.

Recently I had to give in and buy two new (bigger) pairs of pants, but my new body shape is so difficult to dress. Nothing is slimming and what is slimming is so painful to wear! I am constantly adjusting my waistband while seated at my desk. And, dear heavens, my underwear. I am constantly having to unroll them!! I try out four shirts every morning trying to find one that doesn’t look awful and always end in a plain, oversized t-shirt. I am always wondering if someone will notice I am wearing the same few outfits over and over. And the mirrors (also windows, shiny cars, etc.), people!!!! The reflections of rolls and blobs and unattractive shapes that surprise me every single time I catch a glimpse! Because I don’t FEEL like that person. I don’t even recognize that person. But it is me. It sucks. Getting old sucks. I suck. (okay, now I sound like Kat VonD).

I need to look better/feel better. My psyche needs the boost. My body needs the relief. And now, just when I am at my lowest psychologically, Yummie Tummie enters into my life (I HOPE)! I feel (know) I could look good with their help! And feeling (looking) good, is key to my success! All I ask from you, dear readers, is you that cross your fingers (check out http://www.yummielife.com/) and toes (follow @yummietummie on twitter) and tell them how much I deserve a personal style session (like their https://www.facebook.com/yummietummie page)! It is possible that next week, not only will my dream of attending BlogHer come true, but I could end up looking good and feeling better!

PS: Doing those things doesn’t help my chances of winning, but it makes me feel good to know y’all love me!

UPDATE 7/30/11: I AM A FINALIST!!!!! PLEASE KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED. AND EVEN IF IT SUPPOSEDLY DOESN’T HELP, GO TALK ABOUT ME ON YUMMIE TUMMIE’S FACEBOOK AND TWITTER! MAYBE WE CAN HARRASS THEM ENOUGH TO CHOOSE ME!!!!

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1 Comment

  1. hope you feel good and better Vixen, it is indeed hard when it seems there is no turning back to our previous weight regardless how hard we try.

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