Mysterious Ways

Shortly on the heels of the gem below and my self revelations from it, Nannygoat called. The day that Butterball was discharged from the hospital after her birth, she did not pass the infant hearing screening. I haven’t discussed this issue here at all because, truth be told, I had a gut feeling about it and didn’t want Nannygoat to worry. They don’t call it a test, they call it a screening and they don’t call it failing, the calling it not passing. The nurse apparently didn’t like that Butterball didn’t pass, so she repeated the screening five times, all with the same results. When Nannygoat followed up two days later, her pediatrician informed her what I had already researched: that only 10% of newborns who have a problem with the screening ever end up with any permanent problems, most commonly it is fluid in the canal. I am usually the most optomistic of people when it comes to these things, but I couldn’t shut up my gut. So instead, I shut up myself. Denial is a beautiful river.

In our world of modern medicine, lengthy red-tape, and insurance required referrals time passed as we tried to get her in. Finally, today, Butterball was tested. Not screened, but tested. The results showed she is deaf in one ear. Now there is a possibility that a hearing aide may help or even surgery could correct it; I am not giving in yet. We have another appointment on the 19th where I hope we will learn more. But Nannygoat took this very hard.

She said she hates it when people say Ladybug is lucky, that it could be worse. She said if Ladybug was really lucky she would be perfect. I have to disagree. They are all lucky. Genetics and such are just a roll of the dice. Sure the odds are in our favor, but they are just odds. God gave us free will and nature takes its course.

Now don’t get me wrong, I believe in miracles. In my belief, God allows life to “happen.” But He can and does intervene at times. I am lucky enough to have witnessed two such miracles in just the last few years. God also allowed man to become whatever we evolved into, including doctors and researchers and chemist and such. I have faith and we will get through this, as we have everything else. So we got a bad roll this turn, there is always another.


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  1. Wow, I’m so torn. I can only imagine how you guys feel. On one hand, it does seem like you guys have had more than your fair share on your plate in the last couple of years … and on the other hand there are much worse ways to grow up.
    It is a good thing your Grandfather made that special trip to tell you everything was going to be okay.

  2. marmagoo

    Sending good thoughts your way. You have made it through much worse, you will make it through this as well.

  3. I just feel like I was ripped off. I have two beautiful children and both of them are destined to live difficult lives. Why would god do this to my family? I was so careful not to do a single thing wrong the entire pregnancy and this still happened. There are women out there that abuse drugs an alcohol during their pregnancy and still somehow manage to have perectly healthy chidren (most of them don’t but a few do) and I just think, why…why are these things happening to my kids? Why do they have to happen to any kids, god?

  4. Things could be much worse. Now days people with limited hearing abilities are able to lead near normal lives, maybe a hearing device and a few extra doc apt’s here and there – but in the grand scheme of things it’s definitely handleable (yes, it’s Friday the day when I get to make up words!) I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all this stress, but it sounds like you have the right outlook on it!

    Happy Friday 🙂

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